Broke

I know the word way to well since I grew up broke and it follows me till this day. Lets talk about the present rather than the future. Right now I am sitting in my apartment knowing that my rent is due. What will I do nothing since I tried applying for jobs with none of the jobs coming back to me? Luckily my brother gave me money for rent last month, but last month was a good week ago since it was late. I tried to reach my dad for two months, but that did not work since he did not receive my text. I finally go through today and he told me that his text do no come through. It is whatever though I though he could help since he never paid my mother child support to help raise me, but his respond was that he had no money. My mom as awesome as she is does not have any money and I also did not want to bother her. The reason for that is because my aunt just died last week and I wanted her to process it without me bothering her. The funny thing is it is my birthday monday and the funeral happens to be the same day. It is only my twentieth so there is always next year to actually get some calls from my mother. Ha truthfully the only reason I care about it is because I have a friend that will take me out for a movie and some food for my birthday. It is great because all I have to do is survive two day for it because this is the fourth day without eating. I did eat a blueberry muffin, but I could not even swallow it without the help of water. Also getting a job does not seem possible since I should be getting a physical next week for the marines so I can do basic training. I doubt I will pass it since I cannot even eat food without the need to water it down first. Dropped out of school and joined the marines so I can get away from it all, but it seems like before I can even ship out I will either die of starvation or be kicked out onto the streets and die of starvation there. You can only hope that a friend will let you stay at his place if that happens, but I am not there yet. All I know is that I am really hungry. That is what I have been up to the past two weeks.