2 weeks of pain

For the past two weeks I have been trying to finish a story, but have yet to finish it. I have been cut from my hours of work and been slacking on my school. While I have backstabbed someone to make me happy in the future. I have caught a cold that won't go away and gotten an injury on my leg. Even paying for internet so I can just leave in a month peacefully. I felt that my life was not as hard as I thought and got pain in return. I have no idea what to do because I am not healing. At this point I am just waiting to heal and waiting for other things to come. I fear life as I know it will crumble right in front of me. It has yet to start, but I cannot change what I have started. I took two weeks off from myself and all I did was hurt myself. I can only continue to write that story of mines because that is what gives me hope, I do not want to be sick anymore or injured to the point I feel weak. I want to be able to eat whenever I want without worrying if I will have enough for next week. All it is, is a plan in motion just waiting to happen. The 5 seconds before the storm when you can get things done. I do not hope to smile after all of this I just hope to enjoy what I am doing, while feeling less pain than I am now.