Cheat

Cheating can involve a lot of things like cheating on a test, cheating on someone, cheating on a diet and much more. Is cheating ever a good thing or is it completely bad. You may cheat at something big for someone and it is a good thing the person you did it for. Do not do it because you feel bad after doing it and if you continue to do it there will be a point when you do not care to do it. It will be an everyday thing to you and you would have to live life as a cheat.

Eyes

I have dark brown eyes, yet every time I look in the mirror it appears as black as the night sky. When I was younger I could see the light in my eyes and I loved my eyes. Now all I get is pain when I look. These dead black eyes of mine that my father gave me. Made me feel like I would always be a disgrace to him and anyone around me. He told me that I need to dress up and look a certain way because I represented him. No one told him to give me his name. I hated my name because it wasn't mine. The funny thing is that no one in my family called me by his name, but by my nickname. That was great, but in school I was always called by his name. It did not burn as much, but then again no one knew him so that may be the reason. My eyes were still bright then and I was still a weird lovable kid. It wasn't until I saw him again that my eyes became dark and so did my mind. Always brought to a stop on those dark nights that the moonlight came in. The light that was not to be allowed, but still tried to come in. I cannot remember a day I was happy around him or when I was happy with my pupils. I try not to look at these dark eyes because when I look at them I cannot see anything and at this point I can't tell if that is good or bad.

Broke

I know the word way to well since I grew up broke and it follows me till this day. Lets talk about the present rather than the future. Right now I am sitting in my apartment knowing that my rent is due. What will I do nothing since I tried applying for jobs with none of the jobs coming back to me? Luckily my brother gave me money for rent last month, but last month was a good week ago since it was late. I tried to reach my dad for two months, but that did not work since he did not receive my text. I finally go through today and he told me that his text do no come through. It is whatever though I though he could help since he never paid my mother child support to help raise me, but his respond was that he had no money. My mom as awesome as she is does not have any money and I also did not want to bother her. The reason for that is because my aunt just died last week and I wanted her to process it without me bothering her. The funny thing is it is my birthday monday and the funeral happens to be the same day. It is only my twentieth so there is always next year to actually get some calls from my mother. Ha truthfully the only reason I care about it is because I have a friend that will take me out for a movie and some food for my birthday. It is great because all I have to do is survive two day for it because this is the fourth day without eating. I did eat a blueberry muffin, but I could not even swallow it without the help of water. Also getting a job does not seem possible since I should be getting a physical next week for the marines so I can do basic training. I doubt I will pass it since I cannot even eat food without the need to water it down first. Dropped out of school and joined the marines so I can get away from it all, but it seems like before I can even ship out I will either die of starvation or be kicked out onto the streets and die of starvation there. You can only hope that a friend will let you stay at his place if that happens, but I am not there yet. All I know is that I am really hungry. That is what I have been up to the past two weeks.