I went to a top and bottom auction by accident

     Today I got 100 plus followers on my vine today and I felt really good about it. I was feeling really bad this week and this was a great way to get over the funk. Class starts next week and it is back to morning classes and I have a feeling I am hated by someone because this is the second morning class back to back. I guess you want to hear about the topic of this post.
     I haven't been to the geek easy in a long time and every time I go I leave early. The reason for that is because I am an introvert and I have trouble raising my voice to speak to someone new. I wanted to battle that head on, so I went to the event that they were having. The event said mint condition and no real information on what was happening. I went anyway and I waited till 6:30 to go in to the Geek Easy. I saw a lot of people grouping together and I wanted to go to them, but I couldn't. My feet stayed firmly on the ground and didn't move at all.
     Then three girls walked in and they seemed like nice people because two of them were wearing all black and I wanted to get to know them. I still couldn't move, but I did wave hi, so that is a plus I guess. A guy asked if he could sit down with them and I immediately hated his guts because he did it so easily. My body started to move and I finally got up the courage and asked if I could sit with them. They said I could and I got to know them, I was kind of happy for myself.
     I told them that I came not knowing what the event was and they told me I was in for a treat, yay surprises. So we get seated closer to the bigger group and we are told that this is an auction for tops and bottoms. Now the only thing I knew about tops and bottoms, is related to homosexuality. What they meant was the dominator was the top and the receiver is the bottom. I was intrigued by it all and I kind of want to learn more about it first hand. Listen I am a top and will always be a top because of I am messed up mentally. I don't know who will try it out with me, but it would be great for research purposes.
     I didn't really know how this event would go, but all that happened was a person read off a list of things that they are cool with and what they aren't cool with doing. Pretty straightforward if you ask me. The most shocking thing of the night was that a top was auctioned off as a bottom. This event was interesting because I actually initiated a conversation with people I don't know and it was the first kind of event like this that have ever gone to. I don't judge and I am open to whatever, not talking about sexually, eh. I am not going to be closed minded because that isn't the person that I am. There will probably be more events like this and if I can go I will go, probably wont try to auction myself off or buy anyone because I am not that experienced, but I want to open myself up more.

I went outside again and it wasn't as great.

     I left my apartment about 9:30 and I promised myself that I wouldn't return until later, I guess I made that goal. I went farther and that was cool, but I didn't get the same high. I think it was because I actually brought my bag with my laptop in it. I had some extra weight, so I didn't really feel that free. I added a part to the story that I am writing and I am happy with it, but today wasn't really eventful. I came in and did laundry and I wanted to make my first blog video, but I was just drained. My legs hurt and I felt sluggish. Not the best sign of a productive day.
     I think that today wasn't that great because I realized I really don't have anyone to hang out with. I can blame it on being introverted, but if I go outside and explore, it is always alone. I don't want it to be that way because I start putting limitations on myself and that isn't a good thing to do. It sucks to think that way because you aren't free at all, but chained down thinking you are free. It isn't like people are inviting me out and I am just denying their invitations, there aren't any. I am stuck here and I hate that I really can't enjoy my week off from school.
     The outdoors couldn't save me and I hate having to save other people. I like helping people out, but no one thinks about me after I have done something for them. I hate being inside my head at times because I have to face reality and reality isn't a pretty thing. You see that people make excuses and don't really want to hang with you and tell you what you want to hear. There are times when I just want to disappear from the world, no I am not talking about committing suicide. I want to deactivate my social media accounts and just travel. Become open with people and actually create friendships with people that want an adventure, but sometimes those people are close by and you can never meet them because of the people close to you.

What is like like

     I understand that you can like a person, but the last time I have ever heard someone say like like was in middle school. I get what you are trying to say, but the concept is lost on me. If you are asking me if I like you in a relationship type of way, I would understand that. I like people, but I have never liked a person enough to add another like to it. I like both of the girls that I am talking to, but I like them in different ways. One girl is closer to my age, so I can talk to her and even if she is busy I will get a response in a day. The other girl I am talking to is younger and I will text her and she will not respond until she feels like it. You see why I said I like both of them, but it is a different sort of like.
     I have been rejected by online magazines and girls, sadly getting rejected by online magazines hurt more. I could have gotten exposure by being published in a magazine, maybe I would have gotten paid. That is why it hurts so much more and also I like to go to the movies and the park because they are usually places you hang out at. I love to skate, so if there is a park nearby, I am going to it because that is how I relax. I don't really care if you think that a place I chose is romantic, one it isn't a date, and two I don't want to date you.
     I don't like like you, I barely tolerate you. So, I told this girl that I was only sexually attracted to her. This is why you don't send things to people when you are really depressed about life and it didn't help that it was raining. It prevented me from skating, the only thing that really calms me down. So I walked and thought about the wrong things. I basically burnt a bridge along the way and I truthfully don't care. I am dedicating tomorrow to exploring and finding happiness. I need more skater friends.

Maintaining bodily hair

     I would love to say that I know everything about shaving, but sadly I have no real reason to shave. I just started to grow facial hair and that is kind of sad because I am about to turn 21. The only thing I have is a mustache and side burns. It is not like I want to be a hairy person, it just bothers me that people my age and younger have more facial hair than me, but that isn't what this post is about. So, I shave my mustache every so often because I don't like how I look without it and I feel that it should grow be shaved at times. It is basically what defines me at this point. My side burns finally connect to my face, so that is a plus.
     The worst thing about your father not being in the picture is that you aren't taught about manscaping. Then again I wouldn't want my father to talk about manscaping anyway. Thanks dad for giving me the talk when I was 17, South Park already gave me the talk. Well, a lot of the shows did that for me. Like most guys I try to shave the lower regions of my body every month or two because after a while it starts to bother me if I don't. I don't want to get gross because you already know what I look like and we don't need to get that close. I never shave a certain part because I am afraid I will cut it and I am scared of doing that, even though I have researched how to do it successfully. I also didn't know that guys weren't suppose to shave their legs, like I said absentee father. I don't really have a lot of leg hair, it is just curly and spaced out.
     Since we are talking about hair, lets talk about head hair. I wash my hair every week because that is when I was told to wash it. Dye has killed my hair, but I am trying to keep it alive, somehow. For some weird reason, by dyeing my hair, my hair has become curlier. I have these bigger curly spirals in my hair from time to time. I don't know what caused it, but I like it. I really hope that I do something tomorrow because today was a chill with my roommate and write day.

On this day I went outside to explore, some DQ.

     My reason for going outside wasn't DQ, I didn't even know a DQ was near me. I was tired of being inside the house, didn't help that my roommate went to the beach. I went on a journey to get lost and that was exactly what I did. I skated down an area that I've never gone to and found myself on a trail. There were some questionable youths nearby, but I kept skating and found out that there is a Sam's club right by my apartment. Why was I going to Target this whole time?
     So, I found a Taco Bell and a DQ and I tried my first blizzard. It was the best thing because I felt myself dying when I was eating it. They had the nerve to give me this small tray of fries and charge me 2 dollars for it. I was full when I finished my blizzard, so I guess they knew what I needed. I left and went back to the trail because I went out for an adventure, not to eat a bunch and pass out later.
     I saw a lot of beautiful scenery and great people, I actually put up some pictures on my Instagram and put up videos on my vine.I felt really inspired to actually be out in the open and see kids playing soccer and basketball. I haven't played basketball in a long time because I hang out with people that have too much work to do and rather spend their time inside. My roommate told me that I get a high from skating and I understand why he said that. I am happy when I skate, cruising around and exploring a new place is wonderful. There isn't anything that makes me happier.
     It made me lonely because there wasn't anyone I could share this feeling with. Yeah, I shared my experience on social media, but you couldn't really feel what I was feeling unless you were there. I hope everyone had a really good day today.

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I got a few more texts back and once I insulted FedEx they came.

      Today was my last day of the car wash and we didn't leave till 5 because they pushed back to one hour. Ya. I was told that there might be another car wash during break and I haven't wanted plans so much then now. I have done it for three days and now I want to enjoy my Spring Break for at least one day, but I never really get to do that because most of my friends go places.
     My roommates excuse for not wanting to take me to the beach with him is that his friends don't know me and at this point I don't even care. He isn't a dumb guy at all, so telling me that the reason he doesn't want me to go is because they don't know me is the dumbest thing he could have ever said . I really don't like repeating myself, but I will just for you all. We will never get to know each other if we don't hang out, like the first few times it made me mad, but now I just don't care. So, I guess I should get into that juicy subject you have been waiting for.
     FedEx finally came to pick up my package and all it took was me talking trash about them to no one in particular. They picked up my laptop, so I really hope that it is back before the break finishes, but you never know. I guess we are done with today's recap right.
    I am not that mean, I will tell you all about what happened with this girl that I kinda like at this point. So we talked until 1 or 2 in the morning and it was a fun conversation because I was playing a game that doesn't have a pause button and she would text me. Nothing like risking your team's life for a text. So, I was talking to her in the afternoon and I asked her what she was doing today, which is my way of asking if you want to hang out. She told me she had to babysit, now I know that I could have done something along the lines of asking if I could help her, but I didn't. I played it cool and said something funny, but at a point the conversation ended, not like that was all to the conversation, more like she just stopped texting. Hopefully we talk tomorrow, but today I am writing without my mac and I feel really lonely.

I got a text back and wasted a day.

     So, I told you that if I got a text back from this girl that I would immediately tell you and I am sorry I couldn't hop straight on to tell you. I had some things to take care of and I wasn't near my computer. So, I gave in to the temptation and sent one last text. She sent a text back and also said, "hi btw." What do you by the way, I text you like three days ago, but I am not going to get started. I am just saying, I sent a message and if you want me to say hi every time I start a message, I will.
    I wasted a whole day waiting for a FedEx person to pick up my package, but they never came. I have to wait for them in the morning tomorrow, but that isn't something I worry about because I am leaving my apartment by 12 am. So, I am not waiting that long for the delivery person. I talked to my classmate and we talked about being writers and what we want to do when we graduate.
     I am going to participant with the car wash tomorrow again, but it is the last day so all is well. Hopefully my day isn't as bad as it was today. I am signing off and will play some games.