Money

I think that life is a funny thing because I grew up hearing on the television that money is the root of all evil and that usually it is some sort of curse. You need money to eat and to pay for rent and every other bill you may have. Right now I have a balance due to my school and after a month of trying to find financial aid to pay it I got dropped. Now I did not drop out well I guess I did. It just wasn't my decision to do so. My whole world is kind of crashing down because I do not have enough money to pay the rent and I actually like to you know live in my own room. I called my school today so I can get some financial aid to pay off my balance and to get myself some living expenses, but I was told that I would have to re-enroll in order to use financial aid. I thought this was strange, but I was told to call the education office and then I was transferred to the business office. They told me the only way I could re-enroll was to pay off the balance, but the only way I could get financial aid was to re-enroll. It seems like an event made so that you had to get a job to pay off the balance, which would put you out of school for a while and you would have to pay off your other loans as well because it would take you long to pay off both at a time. Going back to school would seem like a far dream unless you had money and if you had money you would not be in this mess in the first place. Truthfully right now I am looking into scholarships, but scholarships take months to actually tell you if you won any type of award. I would like to know what to do in this situation.

News

I never really liked looking at the news even when I was younger because it was boring it did not feel like something that I would ever want to watch. You learn things that you would not know unless people talk about it. Things that makes people have a certain feeling from that specific topic. Even know I cannot stand to watch the news. I know what is going on because of the certain shows that I watch and because it is a topic of interest of people that I come across. I do not have something to say about what is happening. I could say I do not care, but that would seem wrong. I am simply disinterested in wanting to know what happened. I want to be out of any type of light because that is what keeps you out of trouble seeming even a little bit noticeable is what get you noticed. I try not to start any trouble and it seems to have kept me from any type of well trouble. Now not everyone can follow what I do because sometimes it is a wrong time wrong place or you are just dealing with some horrible people and you cannot help that . I truly hate people and I smile and act like I like them so even if they hate me I am able to act like I do not hate them. That does not always work because some times the hate is so strong you cannot stop yourself from showing your hate. If you feel like that exact moment is the end then show all of your cards. Why keep hidden something when you are going to bust anyway.

Looks

I found myself wanting to get through the barrier of the definitions of my. I can only really see people that I can relate to with one sort of style, but here I am exploring different styles. It is probably because I am away from my mother that I even think of doing it and actually doing it. It may be a lot of work to do it, but I have fun being different and it brings some happiness.