I went to a top and bottom auction by accident

     Today I got 100 plus followers on my vine today and I felt really good about it. I was feeling really bad this week and this was a great way to get over the funk. Class starts next week and it is back to morning classes and I have a feeling I am hated by someone because this is the second morning class back to back. I guess you want to hear about the topic of this post.
     I haven't been to the geek easy in a long time and every time I go I leave early. The reason for that is because I am an introvert and I have trouble raising my voice to speak to someone new. I wanted to battle that head on, so I went to the event that they were having. The event said mint condition and no real information on what was happening. I went anyway and I waited till 6:30 to go in to the Geek Easy. I saw a lot of people grouping together and I wanted to go to them, but I couldn't. My feet stayed firmly on the ground and didn't move at all.
     Then three girls walked in and they seemed like nice people because two of them were wearing all black and I wanted to get to know them. I still couldn't move, but I did wave hi, so that is a plus I guess. A guy asked if he could sit down with them and I immediately hated his guts because he did it so easily. My body started to move and I finally got up the courage and asked if I could sit with them. They said I could and I got to know them, I was kind of happy for myself.
     I told them that I came not knowing what the event was and they told me I was in for a treat, yay surprises. So we get seated closer to the bigger group and we are told that this is an auction for tops and bottoms. Now the only thing I knew about tops and bottoms, is related to homosexuality. What they meant was the dominator was the top and the receiver is the bottom. I was intrigued by it all and I kind of want to learn more about it first hand. Listen I am a top and will always be a top because of I am messed up mentally. I don't know who will try it out with me, but it would be great for research purposes.
     I didn't really know how this event would go, but all that happened was a person read off a list of things that they are cool with and what they aren't cool with doing. Pretty straightforward if you ask me. The most shocking thing of the night was that a top was auctioned off as a bottom. This event was interesting because I actually initiated a conversation with people I don't know and it was the first kind of event like this that have ever gone to. I don't judge and I am open to whatever, not talking about sexually, eh. I am not going to be closed minded because that isn't the person that I am. There will probably be more events like this and if I can go I will go, probably wont try to auction myself off or buy anyone because I am not that experienced, but I want to open myself up more.

I went outside again and it wasn't as great.

     I left my apartment about 9:30 and I promised myself that I wouldn't return until later, I guess I made that goal. I went farther and that was cool, but I didn't get the same high. I think it was because I actually brought my bag with my laptop in it. I had some extra weight, so I didn't really feel that free. I added a part to the story that I am writing and I am happy with it, but today wasn't really eventful. I came in and did laundry and I wanted to make my first blog video, but I was just drained. My legs hurt and I felt sluggish. Not the best sign of a productive day.
     I think that today wasn't that great because I realized I really don't have anyone to hang out with. I can blame it on being introverted, but if I go outside and explore, it is always alone. I don't want it to be that way because I start putting limitations on myself and that isn't a good thing to do. It sucks to think that way because you aren't free at all, but chained down thinking you are free. It isn't like people are inviting me out and I am just denying their invitations, there aren't any. I am stuck here and I hate that I really can't enjoy my week off from school.
     The outdoors couldn't save me and I hate having to save other people. I like helping people out, but no one thinks about me after I have done something for them. I hate being inside my head at times because I have to face reality and reality isn't a pretty thing. You see that people make excuses and don't really want to hang with you and tell you what you want to hear. There are times when I just want to disappear from the world, no I am not talking about committing suicide. I want to deactivate my social media accounts and just travel. Become open with people and actually create friendships with people that want an adventure, but sometimes those people are close by and you can never meet them because of the people close to you.

What is like like

     I understand that you can like a person, but the last time I have ever heard someone say like like was in middle school. I get what you are trying to say, but the concept is lost on me. If you are asking me if I like you in a relationship type of way, I would understand that. I like people, but I have never liked a person enough to add another like to it. I like both of the girls that I am talking to, but I like them in different ways. One girl is closer to my age, so I can talk to her and even if she is busy I will get a response in a day. The other girl I am talking to is younger and I will text her and she will not respond until she feels like it. You see why I said I like both of them, but it is a different sort of like.
     I have been rejected by online magazines and girls, sadly getting rejected by online magazines hurt more. I could have gotten exposure by being published in a magazine, maybe I would have gotten paid. That is why it hurts so much more and also I like to go to the movies and the park because they are usually places you hang out at. I love to skate, so if there is a park nearby, I am going to it because that is how I relax. I don't really care if you think that a place I chose is romantic, one it isn't a date, and two I don't want to date you.
     I don't like like you, I barely tolerate you. So, I told this girl that I was only sexually attracted to her. This is why you don't send things to people when you are really depressed about life and it didn't help that it was raining. It prevented me from skating, the only thing that really calms me down. So I walked and thought about the wrong things. I basically burnt a bridge along the way and I truthfully don't care. I am dedicating tomorrow to exploring and finding happiness. I need more skater friends.

Maintaining bodily hair

     I would love to say that I know everything about shaving, but sadly I have no real reason to shave. I just started to grow facial hair and that is kind of sad because I am about to turn 21. The only thing I have is a mustache and side burns. It is not like I want to be a hairy person, it just bothers me that people my age and younger have more facial hair than me, but that isn't what this post is about. So, I shave my mustache every so often because I don't like how I look without it and I feel that it should grow be shaved at times. It is basically what defines me at this point. My side burns finally connect to my face, so that is a plus.
     The worst thing about your father not being in the picture is that you aren't taught about manscaping. Then again I wouldn't want my father to talk about manscaping anyway. Thanks dad for giving me the talk when I was 17, South Park already gave me the talk. Well, a lot of the shows did that for me. Like most guys I try to shave the lower regions of my body every month or two because after a while it starts to bother me if I don't. I don't want to get gross because you already know what I look like and we don't need to get that close. I never shave a certain part because I am afraid I will cut it and I am scared of doing that, even though I have researched how to do it successfully. I also didn't know that guys weren't suppose to shave their legs, like I said absentee father. I don't really have a lot of leg hair, it is just curly and spaced out.
     Since we are talking about hair, lets talk about head hair. I wash my hair every week because that is when I was told to wash it. Dye has killed my hair, but I am trying to keep it alive, somehow. For some weird reason, by dyeing my hair, my hair has become curlier. I have these bigger curly spirals in my hair from time to time. I don't know what caused it, but I like it. I really hope that I do something tomorrow because today was a chill with my roommate and write day.

On this day I went outside to explore, some DQ.

     My reason for going outside wasn't DQ, I didn't even know a DQ was near me. I was tired of being inside the house, didn't help that my roommate went to the beach. I went on a journey to get lost and that was exactly what I did. I skated down an area that I've never gone to and found myself on a trail. There were some questionable youths nearby, but I kept skating and found out that there is a Sam's club right by my apartment. Why was I going to Target this whole time?
     So, I found a Taco Bell and a DQ and I tried my first blizzard. It was the best thing because I felt myself dying when I was eating it. They had the nerve to give me this small tray of fries and charge me 2 dollars for it. I was full when I finished my blizzard, so I guess they knew what I needed. I left and went back to the trail because I went out for an adventure, not to eat a bunch and pass out later.
     I saw a lot of beautiful scenery and great people, I actually put up some pictures on my Instagram and put up videos on my vine.I felt really inspired to actually be out in the open and see kids playing soccer and basketball. I haven't played basketball in a long time because I hang out with people that have too much work to do and rather spend their time inside. My roommate told me that I get a high from skating and I understand why he said that. I am happy when I skate, cruising around and exploring a new place is wonderful. There isn't anything that makes me happier.
     It made me lonely because there wasn't anyone I could share this feeling with. Yeah, I shared my experience on social media, but you couldn't really feel what I was feeling unless you were there. I hope everyone had a really good day today.

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I got a few more texts back and once I insulted FedEx they came.

      Today was my last day of the car wash and we didn't leave till 5 because they pushed back to one hour. Ya. I was told that there might be another car wash during break and I haven't wanted plans so much then now. I have done it for three days and now I want to enjoy my Spring Break for at least one day, but I never really get to do that because most of my friends go places.
     My roommates excuse for not wanting to take me to the beach with him is that his friends don't know me and at this point I don't even care. He isn't a dumb guy at all, so telling me that the reason he doesn't want me to go is because they don't know me is the dumbest thing he could have ever said . I really don't like repeating myself, but I will just for you all. We will never get to know each other if we don't hang out, like the first few times it made me mad, but now I just don't care. So, I guess I should get into that juicy subject you have been waiting for.
     FedEx finally came to pick up my package and all it took was me talking trash about them to no one in particular. They picked up my laptop, so I really hope that it is back before the break finishes, but you never know. I guess we are done with today's recap right.
    I am not that mean, I will tell you all about what happened with this girl that I kinda like at this point. So we talked until 1 or 2 in the morning and it was a fun conversation because I was playing a game that doesn't have a pause button and she would text me. Nothing like risking your team's life for a text. So, I was talking to her in the afternoon and I asked her what she was doing today, which is my way of asking if you want to hang out. She told me she had to babysit, now I know that I could have done something along the lines of asking if I could help her, but I didn't. I played it cool and said something funny, but at a point the conversation ended, not like that was all to the conversation, more like she just stopped texting. Hopefully we talk tomorrow, but today I am writing without my mac and I feel really lonely.

I got a text back and wasted a day.

     So, I told you that if I got a text back from this girl that I would immediately tell you and I am sorry I couldn't hop straight on to tell you. I had some things to take care of and I wasn't near my computer. So, I gave in to the temptation and sent one last text. She sent a text back and also said, "hi btw." What do you by the way, I text you like three days ago, but I am not going to get started. I am just saying, I sent a message and if you want me to say hi every time I start a message, I will.
    I wasted a whole day waiting for a FedEx person to pick up my package, but they never came. I have to wait for them in the morning tomorrow, but that isn't something I worry about because I am leaving my apartment by 12 am. So, I am not waiting that long for the delivery person. I talked to my classmate and we talked about being writers and what we want to do when we graduate.
     I am going to participant with the car wash tomorrow again, but it is the last day so all is well. Hopefully my day isn't as bad as it was today. I am signing off and will play some games.

Swim trunks, dance, and broken headphones

     So, it was day two of the three day car wash and I didn't get washing duty today. The reason that I wanted washing duty was because I wore my swim trunks. I wore them so that I could get wet, and I didn't get wet at all. I am pretty sad, but that wasn't the thing that mad my day bad. So, I skated to the place of the car wash and after denying to hold a sign, a block later I fall. I mess up my hands a little, my phone and headphones separated and this is when I should have put the two together. I should have wrapped my headphones around my phone, but I was bleeding.
     I didn't realize till an hour later that I didn't have my headphones on me, I looked for it and after observing, I found it in the street. I held a little funeral for it outside of Walgreens and went inside to buy new headphones. Now this is the part that shocked me, I was waiting behind this woman and I said hello and smiled at her. This is pretty normal behavior for me. When it was my turn at the register, I was asked if I had a rewards card and the answer will always be no. I don't go to Walgreens because CVS is closer to me. Anyway this woman lets me use her card and then puts down two dollars and tells the cashier to put it towards my purchase. I still have the two dollars because I don't carry bills on my person.
     I go about my day and I remember back to that event and I actually start dancing while holding up the sign. I wanted to get into it and I felt less embarrassed. I didn't say the woman's race because at the end of the day it doesn't matter what race she is because she did something that didn't benefit her in anyway and I respect that. The rest of the day was dancing like a fool holding a sign and going back to the school to attend a writer's panel. That was very informative and fun, I learned a lot from writers in the field right now.
     On my I am so lonely news, the girl that I have been talking to hasn't text me back. She is one of the two girls that I am interested in, but wouldn't be mad if we stayed friends. The thing is, if you don't text me back, I can't really get to know you. At this point there really isn't anything I can do, I sent a message that required more than a yes or no reply. I sent about 5 text already, so you already know that I am not going to text her anymore. At this point she has to text me or I don't have anymore tries and I can't continue. I haven't gotten anything so far, but when she texts me I will tell you all about it, but for now I will keep my feelings trapped inside. Like I always have and how it will always be.
     I should be staying inside for most of the day tomorrow, but I will try to put up an interesting post.

Soap, bikinis, and catcalling.

     So Spring Break is officially here with only one week off from school. Thanks for rearing your head uncle I really don't know. Spring Break starts on the 26th for me and my plans are just to write. I am going to help fundraise for the Jem project that I am working on by helping out with the car wash. My friends are leaving and I have no one to play with, so I am sad.
     As you guessed, the catcalling happened at the car wash and it didn't happen to me. A girl that I recently met named Stephanie was wearing a bikini to attract customers and there were responses. Guys whistling, barking, and saying idiotic comments. It made me feel disgusted as a guy and the reason she wore the swimsuit was to fundraise. I didn't wear a bikini because my body isn't as toned as it should be and I don't want to offend anyone with my skinniness. Tomorrow i will probably see the same thing, but I really hope I don't.
     My mac has been acting up and I will probably have to send it in for repairs. I will try to continue putting up these blogs and big news. I am going to start putting up video blogs on youtube, good news right. Will start off with the first blog post I made and will continue doing it till it catches up with my most recent blog post. I don't see it catching up any time soon because I am planning to do it weekly and I have written a lot of post, so hope you are excited for that. When I put up my first video I will update the about me page and also put it in blog for that day. I am officially done with classes until break ends and I am really hoping not to get another 9 am class. Till tomorrow.

I guess my hair is okay, but I would rather it straight.

     New York is the worst place, correction you will get insults for anything you do. I believe I told you before that my hair was very bad in high school, I got insults daily to cut it, but I didn't. I just wanted it long and that was it. If I cut it then it would never get better and I wouldn't be able to improve it in the future. You can't tell that to teenagers because they have no care in the world and they feel hurting you is better. The worst thing is getting insulted by someone that gets insulted on an everyday basis. He is short and wore Skechers every day, but I didn't call him against it, everybody else did. The thing is, if I got a haircut I would be made fun off, but people always find something to make fun of you. So you just keep the one thing that you are made fun of so that your other defaults don't come to light.
     There was someone who was always a jokester in class and made fun of everyone. He is good looking, acts, raps, and to my knowledge badly does comedy. I would say his name, but I would be giving him more air time and I don't want that to happen. Like I said, people would make fun of what my hair looked liked. My hair is curly, but very dry and the curls like headphones get wrapped up together and get tangled. Nothing I could help at the time, even now it does that, but I do not have to pull out the hair that is tangled.
     I like my hair straight and no I don't feel like I want to be white because I want my hair straight. I am mixed, but a mix that basically just equates to being black. I am native american Blackfoot and I am Trinidadian. I feel more at home with my native american side and I always wondered why I never had long hair. My hair color, my original hair color is brown and black, yes two different colors. It looks like one color though, but I kind of didn't like it because I would have these long black hairs and these brown curly hairs. I just one of the two, but I didn't get that.
     What I am trying to say is that sometimes it gets better and sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes the bullies get ahead in life even though they don't deserve it. It sucks I know, but we just need to focus on ourself, so that someday we can love who we are.

Not that busy of a day because I dropped things for one event.

     I decided to forsake two of the other events that I was going to. My mother would be happy to know that I am going to work. I am doing a play on the old cartoon Jem and it should be interesting because my first job is writing, but I will probably be working on the social media. I wanted to make it to the last event, but by the time the meeting for Jem finished it was already too late. Too much sadness, but I talked to that girl I was suppose to see tomorrow. Yeah I see you caught the suppose.
     She had errands come up at the last second, so I least I wasn't stood up. We are suppose to meet during Spring Break, but I have plans during Spring Break that requires doing work for the meeting I went to today. Momma your son is a working boy that doesn't know when he is going to get paid. So I was playing the division and time escaped me and that is why this post is late, I am sorry. Am I sad that I missed the events, yes, am I sad that I am not going to meet up with this girl, no. I am 20 about to be 21, and she is 18, probably just turned 18.
     At this point I want women my age so I don't really care to deal with someone who is younger. Also, she just started school and I am about to graduate in a few months, so that is slow. I want to focus on my work and not have to worry about being in a relationship, said the guy that hasn't been in a relationship for a worrying amount of time. It doesn't phase me and if I am always single, so what. What happens to me if I stay single, do I immediately join a singles club or will I be left alone. For one thing I know that my relatives will always ask me why I am single. I am such a handsome boy, you don't know me. Well I am done for now and I will try to entertain you tomorrow.

Days filled with nothing, but boredom.

     So, I basically did nothing today and that is all on me. I didn't really know what I should do with my time, so I played video games and discussed with my group for or group project. I go caught up on my favorite show Grimm and that was really all I did. So when 7 came around I realized that I can continue to write the story that I am making. My group project and procrastination has put that on hold, so I start writing and I think back to a few days ago when I submitted one of my stories to someone's magazine.
     The max was 3000 words and I was thinking to myself that I could crank that out in a day or two and I wasn't wrong, but it wasn't my best work. One of the characters die without explaining why she was in the character's place and I regret sending it now. I will go back and redo everything, but for now I am going to work on my current work. The sad thing is that it is already 8 and I have to get up at 7. You have to love those 9 a.m. classes. Stopping now would be the best thing for me to do, I am debating on making a new story to submit, but Ia feeling that wouldn't be nice to the story I already submitted. It isn't something that is bad, it just needs work.
     Time for an inspirational moment, I was not the same person I was in high school. We all change because at a certain point, we aren't kids anymore. As soon as I graduated high school, I started to pick my hair and that was the most painful thing I have ever done. That is what happens when you don't really take care of your hair. Well, I wouldn't say that. I wasn't taught how to take care of my hair, it was either you cut it or you put this greasy stuff into it so that it stayed moisturized. You are told to braid your hair and keep the braids in for three months.
     Now, there is something wrong with keeping it in for three months. In order to keep your hair healthy, you have to clean it, and you can't clean it if it is in braids. So many i's close together. My hair is dyed at this point and I know that dye destroys your hair, but I really wanted a specific color. I don't really think it completely destroyed my hair anyway because I have long strands of curls in my hair if I leave my hair alone. Well, I hope my hair doesn't die on me. I could have used dye, but I felt myself die a little inside when I thought it.
      I will have a very pack schedule tomorrow and hopefully I get the parts to complete my new skateboard. Tomorrow will be about my skateboard. Oh yeah I am also going to eat with this female friend of mine and it is not a date. I will tell you the details on Tuesday.

Nothing like a good condom to ruin your day.

     I do volunteer events every chance I get and today I cleaned up some trash near a lake. Now, I don't understand why or how you rip apart a beer can, why did you throw it on the grass. I dislike people as much as the next guy, but I hate when people litter. It is like the native american in me cries a little each time I see it. A ton of gum wrappers and paper, but the worst thing that I saw was condoms.
     This isn't the first time that I found condoms laying around. I found a whole bag of used condoms a block away from my school. That was gross, but you can tell they tried to throw it away, but something happened with getting it to the trash. Like you do all this work and you know that in a day or two people will litter again. You want to believe that they won't, but you know they will. My final statement, why are you have sex when there is a house a few inches a way. If you want to be freaky, go to an empty park with nothing around it. I sweated a lot today, so I will take a nap, and I want to say take another shower, but the rain took care of that.

To buy pizza, or not to buy pizza.

     So, I wasn't really craving pizza, but I got an email from Domino's. The have a 50% off on all menu priced pizza. Now, if I had a car, I would just drive to my local dominos and pick it up personally. Sadly, I skateboard everywhere, so I am going to miss out on this deal. I can eat one pizza pie and feel bad the whole day about eating a whole pie. Then again I will be hungry an hour later, so yeah. I didn't want to pay $11 for two pizzas, a small and a medium.
     So, I bet myself, if my team on smite is losing in kills at 5:20, not the actual time, but time in the game, then I wouldn't get the pizza. What does the team do, save me money by not getting the pizza. Now my stomach is growling and I want pizza now. Wasn't I suppose to talk about something important, try to keep a budget and be healthy. I had 8 something on a gift card to Publix, a grocery story, and I looked at the macaroni and cheese. I could buy a box of macaroni and cheese for 3 something, or I could buy elbows and another kind of macaroni for less. I did the second option and I have 2.19 left on my gift card. My mom would be so proud, but I am not going to tell her. It is hard budgeting because I have to go to school early in the morning and by the time we have our break, I am really hungry. There is only one healthy place nearby and it is costly because it is good for you.
     I hate that healthy food cost so much and fast food is cheap at the moment. I said at the moment because it is cheaper to buy groceries, but when you are outside all day, it is hard to not spend money when there is food all around you. I am happy I didn't cave in and buy Taco Bell, or the pizza they sell at 7 Eleven. That pizza is better than Little Caesars and it cost a little over 5 dollars. I am getting hungry, so I guess I will cook macaroni and cheese. I will have to wait until my roommate is done with the kitchen, but I will eat.

S&M? Maybe.

     It is 11:29 where I am currently at and I would have put up the post earlier, but school work comes first. I still haven't finished it, but it is reading and after I put up this post I will go back to it, I promise. So, I am totally a Samantha, definitely, not a Morgan. Truthfully I am more of an S because I don't like to receive pain. I guess it all came from getting hit so much as a child and always wanting revenge. An S, is a sadist, and an M, is a masochist. I definitely spelled masochist wrong by the way, anyway one likes to receive pain and the other likes to give pain.
     I don't really like pain because whenever I am in pain and receive an injury, I am always calm. I feel the pain, but I distract myself with other things. That is for a post that will probably never come. You can be in a damaging relationship and be into S&M. If you are someone in that type of relationship, then you should leave. Don't believe that you have to stay in that relationship, times have changed, we aren't shamed for getting divorced. You do get question why you are dating when you are in college, I am 20, let me live. If you learned about S&M from that bad movie, 50 Shades of Grey, I apologize for no reason what so ever. Read some erotica and see if you are totally into it.
      If you thought I was going to get into my sexual experiences, you were wrong. I am pure, nothing defiled about me. Get it, because I am free of judgement of all things. I am going to get back to my homework and you get back to whatever you were doing.

Gay?

     I shouldn't really hang out with him because he is gay. I would NEVER have thoughts like this because I don't have anything against gay people. There isn't anything wrong with gay people or transgender people. One of my roommates is gay and the other one is straight, I am closer to my gay roommate. We have a lot in common, I don't like guys as much as he does by the way. Tonight I told him that I wasn't a feminist, but I'm pro-women. He made me realize that I was a feminist. I was raise in a single parent household by my mother and there are more women, than men in my family. Like I said I am not a picture perfect heterosexual male. I treat everyone equally, it wasn't how I was raised, but I kind of saw that if you treated someone differently, that they wouldn't like that. They want to be treated the same way you treat others, but we put on our mask and act like they are special.
     My generation isn't the best, but there are people in my generation that don't care about race, sex, filtering, and I like that. We want to be individuals and if we try to follow a schematic that was given to us, then we aren't unique at all. We aren't really, us at all.
     I have dealt with a transgender woman before and the reason we don't talk is because of her. I found out she was a transgender in a very revealing way, but I wasn't ignorant. I had never really experienced being with a transgender woman before, so I was curious. I wanted to be friends, but every time I went over, she wanted to try something. I was not ready to start something like that and I understand that you are a woman, but to someone that has never experienced something like this, you have to give me some time to adjust. I know I am irresistible to every sex, but I am a friendly person, and some times signals get misread.
     I am a straight, black man telling you that gay people are awesome people, and that they should be treated the same way you treat others. If you treat everyone like dirt, I doubt you have friends, but I guess there will be someone out there for you. Tune in to the next episode when we talk about S & M.

I would never date outside my race...

      I hope you know that I was being very sarcastic when I put the topic on this post. I grew up with black people and my family always talked about dating a black girl. They gossiped when a black guy got a white woman and they put their nose up in the air in disgust. My friends are cool dating outside their race, but I think that some of them will still stay with in their race. Now I am a black male that won't date black women. I don't think that black women are undesirable, they just aren't my type.
     It is different in most hispanic families because it is a prize to get someone who is white as your partner. Why this is I have no idea. Also, being light-skinned is something that is a perk in both the hispanic and black culture.
     Since this is a race topic, let us talk about the Oscars, I wasn't mad at all when i heard that there was no black actors that were nominated for a reward. I only saw one movie that was nominated and that was Mad Max, so I was happy about it winning awards. The reason I didn't care was because most of the people that were mad, didn't see any of the movies that were nominated, they just saw the movies that had black actors in them. Now I am sure that there are people that actually saw some of the movies that were nominated, but the majority didn't, and that was the problem. If anyone actually saw the Oscars, then they would have seen Chris Rock interview people going to the movies. It highlighted that people knew nothing about the movies being nominated and they didn't care, all they cared about was the fact that no black actors were nominated. I am not putting a gender tag on actor by the way.
     Well, that was my opinion and I hope that you will not hate me for my views on life, but if you do I probably wouldn't care.

What is the maximum number of text that you can send to one person?

     The truth my surprise you, tune in at five for the answer. Since I am not paid by a news station I will tell you now. There isn't really a defined answer, people are different, so you respond differently. There are people that will text as soon as you text them and there are people that will take forever to text you back. For someone I just met, four is my maximum number of texts that I will send out. When I was in high school I was that more than texts was too much, so I basically just stuck to four. Now that I am in college, I started to realize that there are some people that need you to text them a bunch of times before they respond.
     The reason that I stuck with four is because I am an introvert, which means that some times I have no idea if I should send another text. Will I annoy this person with my or will this person just stop talking to me? These are the thoughts that run through my head and it stuck to think like that, so now I try to be risky. Just a little bit because I want to be closer to my friends.

Not the average man

     The reason that I say this is because I am not interested in sex, well as much as my friends are. I kind of always found this strange that I wasn't interested in it. Recently I took a personality test and it told me that I am INTJ. I would tell you what it stands for, but I want you to take a personality test as well. Anyway, people that are given the awesome title of INTJ don't really think about sex in the usual manner that we are made to think. We just think of it as a thing that people do. We may try it a few time, but it is not something that we are drawn to. So am I below average because I don't crave sex like most men do. I don't really think so. I believe that I am still average because I am still a man. There is nothing wrong with me, that people will notice anyway. Never think that you are smaller because of the way you think because you are average or above average.
     If no one else can see it, then you have to see it and believe it so that everyone else knows who you are deep inside. Felt that I need to give a motivational speech since I was listening to music that made me realize that life can always be worse.

Love life of a single man

      At the ripe age of 20, I can clearly call myself a man, even though I refer to myself as a middle grade child. I never understood love and I don't understand the reason to. I haven't been in a relationship since high school and I don't think that is remotely strange. For some people, I am a handsome young man and should have a girlfriend by now, what follows is usually why, and the occasional advice. Now, why do I need a girlfriend to validate my life, if I have no intention of getting married, There are relationships, just for fun, but I have a feeling that most girls that date me will want to marry me. We get that old anime vibe of a guy/girl telling their crush that they love them and that always bothered me. It is a crush, not someone you know to be your future husband.
     I don't want any kids and I definitely don't want to marry anyone. I was always told that, these are childish thoughts, and I will basically wise up. If I am saying that I don't want kids at ten, you already lost me. I just want some good friends and memories. So, don't ask someone if they have a significant other, unless you want to be their significant other, you pansy.

Delayed hobby

I realized that the sites that I uses to read manga wasn't really great. I believe it made my computer slow so I have stopped reading manga. Digimon cyber sleuth has been filling that hole, but I still miss it. I have started watching anime on Hulu, so yay. I will start coming back to the blog again soon, so hopefully more post.